I guess it will never be.......

My sister and I never really had a chance to be sisters thanks to our parents divorce and constant bickering between the two of them and the stepmother since we were separated by the parental kidnapping of my sister. Our lack of relationship may have started because of this but as adults for some reason unknown and not understood by me we still don't have a sisterly relationship or bond.
I have always wanted to be close to her. As a kid I looked up to her and admired her but since she is two years older than me I always thought that was the reason she never wanted to have me around but as we grew older I started noticing major differences between us in our beliefs and values. I use to try and talk to her about them but I always felt that if I didn't agree with her she judged me and in her mind her way was the only way and if I didn't follow her way then I was never going to be good enough for her. In spite of this I still loved my sister and wanted to have a bond with her but it always felt like I was a tolerated visitor in her life. When my niece came along I wanted even more for us to be close and for awhile I though things were better and then when I married it seemed like we were getting closer but then 6 years ago I divorced and I noticed things started to change again and we talked a little less and we saw each other less then I noticed I wasn't invited to my niece's birthday parties every year. Then when I moved to the same town she lived in for the first year things seemed better.  We spent alot of time together and had lunches and went shopping and talked on the phone more and even had weekly dinners at her house but this year we've probably talked on the phone two or three times and texted a hand full of times and haven't seen each other at all and we live in the same town!

I feel like I try. I call and she doesn't answer, I text and might get a reply a day or two later, I invite to spend time together and nothing. It hurts my feelings and makes me lonely especially since she is the only blood relative I had a relationship with and is my sister but then this week again I reach out to her to try and make plans to see her and her family for Christmas and a day later she finally text me back with "we are having family come to stay with us and... "(something else I will leave private for her but was shocked as her sister she had not even reached out to me about and when I asked her why she hadn't her response was simply "I just didn't "

Maybe I am being overly sensitive but I was shocked she didn't share the situation with me. She is my sister and I want to know about her life and I want to be a part of her life but it just seems like she doesn't want me to be a part of her life. I wish I knew why maybe it would be less painful but I guess I will never know and just have to figure a way to get over it and not let it hurt so much but it's hard, especially with the life I was dealt but I guess like I have done with every other difficult hand I will eventually get over it and survive it.