All of my life I have been a people watcher. I have sat back and observed their actions, how they interact with others, what people say, what people don't say, their body language, their reactions to others behaviors,their decisions, the consequences for the decisions they make and I have given great thought about my own actions, decisions, consequences, behaviors, what I say, what I don't say and I like to think that I have learned something from all of this, but sometimes I wonder if I learned the right lessons.
Growing up, my mom and I didn't have much. We struggled most of the time but somehow we managed and survived. As a young adult I didn't have much but I had dreams and I somehow I struggled and survived. I learned that if you have dreams, set goals, and make the right sacrifices then you can make your own dreams come true! I learned thta sometimes you have to meet your goals alone and sometimes you have help but you survive.
Zack is single father. His ex wife is a drug addict but his ex in laws help him raise his daughter. Over the last few years he has had some hard times due to being laid off twice. Each time he was laid off he had to take a pay cutt with the new employment he found. During the times he was laid off he pawned many of his treasured belongings to make sure he and his daughter ate and the bills were paid.
A few weeks ago he was in an auto accident. The accident was not his fault but the other person did not have insurance (he was also here in this country illegally but that's another story for another day). Zack's truck was totaled. The vehicle is totaled but it is still drivable but would not pass inspection as a safe vehicle to have on the road, nor would it be able to insure or get tags. This could cause futher financial hardship if he were caught driving this truck on the road once the tags or inspection expired or the insurance company (which he only has liability on) found out the vehicle was totaled. He complains all the time that he needs to save up the money to have the truck repaired which is going to cost him a thousands or purchase a new vehicle. He told me that he wasn't going to go to our group of friend's Friday night outings any longer because it cost too much. I told him that I needed to save money as well and that's why I hadn't been attending them.
Every Friday since that time he has sabotaged his own goals by going to the outings and spending money he doesn't have to spend. Instead he goes out and sits at the resturant and drinks, spending money he doesn't have.
Nancy goes to the same establishment several times a week. She also abuses prescription mediactions on top of her drinking. She supports her entertainment by charging to credit cards. She is spending money she doesn't have. She complains that she knows she has issues and she knows she drinks and takes pills so that she won't have to deal with those issues. She knows that this causes issues in her marriage, she knows it causes issues with her friends and this has caused her a legal situation. She was arrested for dui, and hitting a parked vehicle without leaving information. She was lucky because she works for the judge and knows the city attorney and they have worked out a deal that she will only be charged with the hit and run, and she will take alcohol abuse classes. She goes to court tomorrow.
With all of these issues riding on the line she still engages in this behavior. She still sabotages herself on a regular basis.
I don't understand that. I have found myself in the past (and I am sure I will in the future) doing things that are self destructive but I catch myself and learn from it and stop myself from knowingly engaging in self sabotaging behaviors as much as I can. I am not perfect by far, but if a person knows they are engaging in such behavior why wouldn't they stop themselves? Why being knowingly self destructive even when the alternative may mean sacrifice to reach one's goals?
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
The journey continues
An opportunity sprouted for me on Friday afternoon. A friend in Ranger received a letter from the IRS stating that they owed employer tax from 2007. This was during a time period in which he allowed a girlfriend's daughter (with no book keeping experience) to keep his books. There were several errors discovered after that time that have since been corrected. With this new issue arising his current secretary has called me and asked for my assistance in resolving the issue. I have chosen to assist with correcting this issue in hopes of his word of mouth advertising.
Let's hope that this action of good faith works out and helps me create awareness in his local community for my services!
On another note: the stress of the unknown - will my business succeed, am I doing all I can, and of course the added stress of trying to complete my Masters degree at the same time may be catching up with me.
My insomnia has increased and last week I have not been sleeping well at all. I have selected to try and take the supplement melatonin to see if this helps as well as increasing my work out schedule and changing my diet. I am hoping that this helps because I am not sure how much more worse insomnia could get.
Well, it is Sunday the day of rest but as the old saying goes there is no rest for the wicked - I must move away from my desk now that I have completed my Contract Risk and Opportunity Paper for Business Law course and move on to housework. The dreaded much neglected tasks of cleaning my bathroom! UGH!!!
Have a great Sunday!
Let's hope that this action of good faith works out and helps me create awareness in his local community for my services!
On another note: the stress of the unknown - will my business succeed, am I doing all I can, and of course the added stress of trying to complete my Masters degree at the same time may be catching up with me.
My insomnia has increased and last week I have not been sleeping well at all. I have selected to try and take the supplement melatonin to see if this helps as well as increasing my work out schedule and changing my diet. I am hoping that this helps because I am not sure how much more worse insomnia could get.
Well, it is Sunday the day of rest but as the old saying goes there is no rest for the wicked - I must move away from my desk now that I have completed my Contract Risk and Opportunity Paper for Business Law course and move on to housework. The dreaded much neglected tasks of cleaning my bathroom! UGH!!!
Have a great Sunday!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Another week.......
Well, I have made alot of headway in the journey of my 60 second commute! I have all the marketing materials being printed up, I have created my website and published it, I am noq working on the behind the scenes info to make sure that my website is getting enough exposure.
I have to admit that this endeavor is scary but if I can build up enought clients to pay the bills until I am finished with my Masters degree then my plan will all be falling into place and I will be move onto persuing teaching business online! Dreams take alot of hardwork and determination but I feel if I keep on pushing through then I will be able to accomplish my goals and dreams! Sometimes I just wish that my family and friends supported me.
With the exclusioin of two people, I never feel like my family and friends believe in me or support what I want to accomplish! I just feel like they want to know what's in it for them and if there is nothing in it for them - then they are not interested. It hurts sometimes and gets me down - like this week for example but I just keep pushing myself on!
On top of all this work trying to get things going, I finished laying my kitchen floor which looks awsome! I am so proud! Now the only other home improvement projects I have left to tackle are the front deck/porch and the bathroom.....maybe I will decide what I am doing in the bathroom soon!
Well, I am not feeling well this week so I will be cutting this short. Not that I feel like anyone will really notice but that's niether here nor there.
I have to admit that this endeavor is scary but if I can build up enought clients to pay the bills until I am finished with my Masters degree then my plan will all be falling into place and I will be move onto persuing teaching business online! Dreams take alot of hardwork and determination but I feel if I keep on pushing through then I will be able to accomplish my goals and dreams! Sometimes I just wish that my family and friends supported me.
With the exclusioin of two people, I never feel like my family and friends believe in me or support what I want to accomplish! I just feel like they want to know what's in it for them and if there is nothing in it for them - then they are not interested. It hurts sometimes and gets me down - like this week for example but I just keep pushing myself on!
On top of all this work trying to get things going, I finished laying my kitchen floor which looks awsome! I am so proud! Now the only other home improvement projects I have left to tackle are the front deck/porch and the bathroom.....maybe I will decide what I am doing in the bathroom soon!
Well, I am not feeling well this week so I will be cutting this short. Not that I feel like anyone will really notice but that's niether here nor there.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Another day in the journey of my life
In Feb. I was laid off in the most horrible manner possible. After spending the previous two years of my life trying to help people turn around a company their partner had sabotaged, without any notice they walked in my office and laid me off.
I had two things going for me; I had already started the proceedings of returning to school to achieve my Masters degree and I was tired of working for people who did not appreciate my efforts.
So March 10th I started school, filed for unemployment and started sending out resumes to try and find another job! After weeks of receiving rejections saying over qualified I felt very depressed. I experienced difficulty getting motivated to get out of bed, I had no motivation to eat, clean, or do anything else. By the end of the week my sink was full of dishes, my dogs were restless from lack of activity, and I wasn't quite sure what to do. My depression was sneaking up on me in a hurry and I needed to do something quickly!
I had a talk with myself and decided that I needed a plan and a goal to work towards in order to motivate myself! I took inventory of my marketable skills, asked myself what it was that I really wanted to do and I started working on a setting some goals for myself.
1. Opportunity- Online teaching After I receive my Master's degree I will be qualified to teach courses in business. I believe that this would be the perfect career for me because I enjoy teaching, training is a successful area I have accomplished and I will be qualified once I complete my degree!
2. Opportunity - own my own business. What kind of business? Virtual/Personal Assistant. This is something I can do on my own schedule, from my home and allow time for other activities. I have 15 years of experience, education and success!
Now I just need to market myself!
3. Volunteer work - I have already started working with the CarterBlood with blood drives! I also want to work with CASA so I will be attending the next training session they have in my area! I will be able to help children who are in the same situations I was as a child and I can relate and understand. I can give to them what I wished someone had given me.
So, for the past few weeks I have been researching the VA/PA market and creating documents, and processes and trying to draw in clients. I am very scared but also excited. This could make or break me. I would love to bring in enough business that my "mother" could quite the job she's had for 20 years and no longer enjoys and work for me as well! That to me would be the ultimate success! I just need to get my name out there!
It has been a long and busy week for me but I have accomplished alot. I have my business plan, marketing materials, contracts and programs all in place and now I just need to work hard to bring the clients in!
I will be logging off and trying to go to sleep now but my anxiety levels are up so much I am not holding my breath!
I had two things going for me; I had already started the proceedings of returning to school to achieve my Masters degree and I was tired of working for people who did not appreciate my efforts.
So March 10th I started school, filed for unemployment and started sending out resumes to try and find another job! After weeks of receiving rejections saying over qualified I felt very depressed. I experienced difficulty getting motivated to get out of bed, I had no motivation to eat, clean, or do anything else. By the end of the week my sink was full of dishes, my dogs were restless from lack of activity, and I wasn't quite sure what to do. My depression was sneaking up on me in a hurry and I needed to do something quickly!
I had a talk with myself and decided that I needed a plan and a goal to work towards in order to motivate myself! I took inventory of my marketable skills, asked myself what it was that I really wanted to do and I started working on a setting some goals for myself.
1. Opportunity- Online teaching After I receive my Master's degree I will be qualified to teach courses in business. I believe that this would be the perfect career for me because I enjoy teaching, training is a successful area I have accomplished and I will be qualified once I complete my degree!
2. Opportunity - own my own business. What kind of business? Virtual/Personal Assistant. This is something I can do on my own schedule, from my home and allow time for other activities. I have 15 years of experience, education and success!
Now I just need to market myself!
3. Volunteer work - I have already started working with the CarterBlood with blood drives! I also want to work with CASA so I will be attending the next training session they have in my area! I will be able to help children who are in the same situations I was as a child and I can relate and understand. I can give to them what I wished someone had given me.
So, for the past few weeks I have been researching the VA/PA market and creating documents, and processes and trying to draw in clients. I am very scared but also excited. This could make or break me. I would love to bring in enough business that my "mother" could quite the job she's had for 20 years and no longer enjoys and work for me as well! That to me would be the ultimate success! I just need to get my name out there!
It has been a long and busy week for me but I have accomplished alot. I have my business plan, marketing materials, contracts and programs all in place and now I just need to work hard to bring the clients in!
I will be logging off and trying to go to sleep now but my anxiety levels are up so much I am not holding my breath!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Guardian Services - Virtual/Personal Assistant
Toni Burleson is a virtual assistant and her decision to become one and operate her own business was not just a career change it was a life style change!
Toni Burleson was the General Manager for a small internet provider firm, when she decided to uproot her life and charge in a new direction that would allow her more time to devote to other interests in life such as volunteering, animal rescue and spending more time with her friends and family!
Burleson has clients all over the U.S. that she assists and growing at a rapid speed! Her years of experience in business administration as well as her education have helped her to succeed! Burleson is an independent entrepreneur who works remotely and uses technology to deliver services to clients!
Burleson works from her home offices and receives project instructions by phone, fax, e-mail or even instant message. Many of the clients are interested in secretarial services, but as more clients with diverse backgrounds discover virtual assistants Burleson has been able to utilize her skills in such areas as management, administration, marketing, IT support making her a unique partner to have in your arsenal!
• Bookkeeping
• Business Administration
• Correspondence
• Data Input
• Email Administration
• Executive Assistant
• Invoicing
• Office Management
• Payroll
• Personal Administration
• Personal Assistant
• Reminder Service
• Research
• Secretarial Services
• Time Management
• Word Processing
Toni Burleson
254 965 5610
www.va4u.com/GaurdianServices/
Toni Burleson was the General Manager for a small internet provider firm, when she decided to uproot her life and charge in a new direction that would allow her more time to devote to other interests in life such as volunteering, animal rescue and spending more time with her friends and family!
Burleson has clients all over the U.S. that she assists and growing at a rapid speed! Her years of experience in business administration as well as her education have helped her to succeed! Burleson is an independent entrepreneur who works remotely and uses technology to deliver services to clients!
Burleson works from her home offices and receives project instructions by phone, fax, e-mail or even instant message. Many of the clients are interested in secretarial services, but as more clients with diverse backgrounds discover virtual assistants Burleson has been able to utilize her skills in such areas as management, administration, marketing, IT support making her a unique partner to have in your arsenal!
• Bookkeeping
• Business Administration
• Correspondence
• Data Input
• Email Administration
• Executive Assistant
• Invoicing
• Office Management
• Payroll
• Personal Administration
• Personal Assistant
• Reminder Service
• Research
• Secretarial Services
• Time Management
• Word Processing
Toni Burleson
254 965 5610
www.va4u.com/GaurdianServices/
Doggie Daycare
Guardian Services Doggie Daycare 254 965 5610 Stephenville Texas
What is Doggie Daycare?
Doggie daycare works just like Daycare for human babies. Drop your dog off in the morning on the way to work, and while you slave away at the daily grinde, your four legged companion will spend the day with us at our residential facility! Depending on both your dog's activity level, and the curriculum decided upon for your companion, he may enjoy his day by playing with other dogs, playing with people, inside or outside, or he may be the type to while away the hours in our home on the couch, getting loving attention.
Our residential facility is a privately-owned doggie daycare, and we restrict ourselves to a low number of dogs being cared for at any given time. If your dog is of the anti-social type, this may be the better option for you and your dog. If your dog does not socialize well with other dogs we will work on this behavior but do have options available to separate them from other dogs!
Cost of Doggie Daycare
Boarding reservations should be scheduled in advance
Cost can vary between $10.00 a day and $35.00 a day, depending on your companion’s individual needs speak with Toni Burleson for pricing information.
Bathing - $10 for non daycare customers
$8 for daycare customers
Nail clipping - $ 5.00
Services
Our facility offers dog walking for your companion. Maybe doggie daycare is not a preferred situation for you and your companion. We also offer services to arrive at your home and pick up your companion to walk on a daily basis while you are slaving away at your job or on vacation!
Our boarders are fed Purina brand dog foods, unless the pet owner prefers to provide food. We suggest that unless you feed Purina brand dog foods that you provide food for your four legged loved one to avoid any digestive problems or related illnesses.
Dogs are taken outdoors individually if needed otherwise they are taken as a pack. While in our care all dogs will learn to belong to the pack at the daycare in order to help foster excellent socialization, at least twice daily for exercise. We do not make use of kennels or cages or crates unless provided by the owner. The residential building is a lived in home and is kept cleaned and they are given fresh food and water daily. Towels, blankets or fleeces may be provided as bedding by the owner. Any dog boarding in our facility is offered bathing services.
All pets admitted for boarding must be current on vaccinations. These include Rabies and DHLP-P-CV for dogs and a copy of their records must be provided to the facility prior to their arrival or upon their first day of arrival.
We are happy to call to verify vaccines if need be.
Prices are based on the weight of the pet and are charged by the night
Pet Supplies
We also have the ability to purchase dog supplies for your companion!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
I hate dating
I have been divorced for 3 1/2 years now. I have been dating for about 3 years again. It has not been a fun experience but it has been interesting and entertaining!
There are several things I have learned in the second experience at dating.
Some people say they are looking for a relationship but what they are really looking for is sex.
With the encouragment of my friend I tried the internet dating experience. I was leary of this at first because I didn't want to end up a statistic, you know meeting the psycho guy who ends up hacking my body into a million pieces, but I will go on! I meet, Mike. He says he has a lake house on Lake Worth, a good job as a sales person, talks about his family constantly, seems very down to earth and understanding. We talked for months before I actually met him in person. I was careful though; I gave my friend all his contact info, met him in a public place - the city park - I took both of my rottweilers with me and we spent the afternoon walking at the park, talking and playing with my dogs. As evening approached I new it was time to end the date because we had spent almost the entire day at the park hanging out. As I begin the good bye, I've had a nice time process he stops me and says, "hey I wasn't planning on leaving....I was going to stay the night." I responded with, "well that's nice, did you already check into a hotel?" and he laughs and says, "a hotel? I can't stay at your house?" I was shocked. I could not believe the balls on this guy! Yeah we had been talking for months, but did he really think he was going to stay at my house the first time I met him? I let him know that was not going to happen and that I was leaving. He sent a few more emails to me but I didn't respond. I knew that any guy that was that thought he was going to spend the night with me the first time he met me did not respect me enough to continue to get to know him.
The second thing I learned is that some people have just been hurt too bad to be in a relationship and some people are just heartless asses.
I didn't let that experience discourage me though I decided to try the internet dating again and I met two guys that I was interested in. One was from Germany- Oz, worked construction and horses, and the other Jason, was an oil field worker who worked 30 on 30 off.
Oz would come lived about 40 miles away and would come over on the weekend and meet me for dinner and listen to music and we'd play pool. I would go to his house and we ride and hang out. It was very nice for awhile but after about a year of getting to know him I just didn't feel the relationship was ever going to go anywhere because he had been so hurt in his past he couldn't get over it so we decided to stop seeing eachother.
Jason lived in Abilene which is about an hour and a half from me. I thought this would be ok, since he worked 30 on and 30 off we could have plenty of time apart and take things slow and get to know eachother the old fashion way when we was off working through writing to one another! However, after a few weeks of dating I ended it quickly. He came to see me one night we had dinner and hung out a bit and it was nice. He left and went home. We talked on the phone and made a second date. He came to town again and we had another wonderful date at the lake! Then it was time for him to go back to work. We exchanged emails while he was away. Then one day he just showed up at my job. I was not happy. I had no idea he was coming and actually had plans with friends that night. He was upset that I wouldn't change my plans and he didn't want to spend time with my friends so I told him we would have to plan a date. The next day I received a call from family that my great uncle had passed away. I was very close to him and the funeral was that following weekend. I called Jason to let him know I would have to cancel and he became very upset. I knew that any man that would be upset I had to attend a funeral instead of go out with him was not the guy for me so I ended that.
By this time I was alittle disturbed about my dating experiences but I was determined not to let a few bad experiences turn me from dating. Afterall, I really did want someone to share my life with. That's when I learned that friends do not always have all the information on a situation when setting you up!
A few months went by - I had given up on the internet dating experience and deleted my profiles. An old friend and former co worker suggested me going out with a guy I had known previously through a working relationship. He was always really nice when I worked with him and thought, ok I will give it a try! His name was Wesley. He was a father of four and this concerned me a bit, but he said the divorce was friendly and it wouldn't be a problem. However, I quickly learned that it was a huge problem. After about a month of dating I was hanging out with him at his house and discovered that the reason he was able to spend so much time with his kids was because they lived across the street from him with his ex wife! He said it was just to make raising the kids easier and there wasn't going to be a problem. He invited me over to hang out for the first time about a month into dating and I accepted. After being over there for about 30 minutes there was a knocking at the door and he answered. It was woman and he stepped outside on the porch and closed the door behind him. Upon coming back in the house he told me that was his ex wife and she was pissed because he had a woman at his house. Red light, red light, red light! I discovered that night that he had not been apart from her for very long as a matter of fact he asked me out the weekend after he moved out of their house! Needless to say that ended right then!
A few months went by and I was introduced to Zack and Austin. I learned that some people are just rude and others are just selfish, liars. I dated them for awhile and after a couple of dates with Zack I decided he was just looking for sex and I wouldn't be going out with him because I wanted more than that. Austin and I continued dating and we even got serious enough to be exclusive. After dating for about 8 months he began drinking more and more. After a couple of canceled dates because I would arrive at his house and he would be so drunk I would tell him I wasn't going out with him like that I stopped seeing him. He continued calling and at one point I even had to get a restraining order against him to leave me alone.
I decided that was it. I was done. Where were all the nice guys? I moved on to a "friend with benefits" and so far that has worked out the best. I see him when I want to. I don't see him when I don't want to. I don't have to waste energy on something I know isn't going to happen because we were already friends and had known eachother for years and it was what it was and we were very upfront and honest about it!
However, another year has gone by and I decided I am ready to start dating again, but all the good guys seem to be hiding? They either want to have "instant relationship - just add warm body" or they don't know what dating means, or there are just too many frogs out there!
Today a friend told me I am intimidating to men. He said I was smart, witty, hold my own, and not afraid to speak my mind. He said that was intimidating to men.
Does that mean I am doomed to be alone? When did it become a bad thing to be a smart, witty, independant woman who could hold a conversation and didn't mold herself to be what someone else wanted?
There are several things I have learned in the second experience at dating.
Some people say they are looking for a relationship but what they are really looking for is sex.
With the encouragment of my friend I tried the internet dating experience. I was leary of this at first because I didn't want to end up a statistic, you know meeting the psycho guy who ends up hacking my body into a million pieces, but I will go on! I meet, Mike. He says he has a lake house on Lake Worth, a good job as a sales person, talks about his family constantly, seems very down to earth and understanding. We talked for months before I actually met him in person. I was careful though; I gave my friend all his contact info, met him in a public place - the city park - I took both of my rottweilers with me and we spent the afternoon walking at the park, talking and playing with my dogs. As evening approached I new it was time to end the date because we had spent almost the entire day at the park hanging out. As I begin the good bye, I've had a nice time process he stops me and says, "hey I wasn't planning on leaving....I was going to stay the night." I responded with, "well that's nice, did you already check into a hotel?" and he laughs and says, "a hotel? I can't stay at your house?" I was shocked. I could not believe the balls on this guy! Yeah we had been talking for months, but did he really think he was going to stay at my house the first time I met him? I let him know that was not going to happen and that I was leaving. He sent a few more emails to me but I didn't respond. I knew that any guy that was that thought he was going to spend the night with me the first time he met me did not respect me enough to continue to get to know him.
The second thing I learned is that some people have just been hurt too bad to be in a relationship and some people are just heartless asses.
I didn't let that experience discourage me though I decided to try the internet dating again and I met two guys that I was interested in. One was from Germany- Oz, worked construction and horses, and the other Jason, was an oil field worker who worked 30 on 30 off.
Oz would come lived about 40 miles away and would come over on the weekend and meet me for dinner and listen to music and we'd play pool. I would go to his house and we ride and hang out. It was very nice for awhile but after about a year of getting to know him I just didn't feel the relationship was ever going to go anywhere because he had been so hurt in his past he couldn't get over it so we decided to stop seeing eachother.
Jason lived in Abilene which is about an hour and a half from me. I thought this would be ok, since he worked 30 on and 30 off we could have plenty of time apart and take things slow and get to know eachother the old fashion way when we was off working through writing to one another! However, after a few weeks of dating I ended it quickly. He came to see me one night we had dinner and hung out a bit and it was nice. He left and went home. We talked on the phone and made a second date. He came to town again and we had another wonderful date at the lake! Then it was time for him to go back to work. We exchanged emails while he was away. Then one day he just showed up at my job. I was not happy. I had no idea he was coming and actually had plans with friends that night. He was upset that I wouldn't change my plans and he didn't want to spend time with my friends so I told him we would have to plan a date. The next day I received a call from family that my great uncle had passed away. I was very close to him and the funeral was that following weekend. I called Jason to let him know I would have to cancel and he became very upset. I knew that any man that would be upset I had to attend a funeral instead of go out with him was not the guy for me so I ended that.
By this time I was alittle disturbed about my dating experiences but I was determined not to let a few bad experiences turn me from dating. Afterall, I really did want someone to share my life with. That's when I learned that friends do not always have all the information on a situation when setting you up!
A few months went by - I had given up on the internet dating experience and deleted my profiles. An old friend and former co worker suggested me going out with a guy I had known previously through a working relationship. He was always really nice when I worked with him and thought, ok I will give it a try! His name was Wesley. He was a father of four and this concerned me a bit, but he said the divorce was friendly and it wouldn't be a problem. However, I quickly learned that it was a huge problem. After about a month of dating I was hanging out with him at his house and discovered that the reason he was able to spend so much time with his kids was because they lived across the street from him with his ex wife! He said it was just to make raising the kids easier and there wasn't going to be a problem. He invited me over to hang out for the first time about a month into dating and I accepted. After being over there for about 30 minutes there was a knocking at the door and he answered. It was woman and he stepped outside on the porch and closed the door behind him. Upon coming back in the house he told me that was his ex wife and she was pissed because he had a woman at his house. Red light, red light, red light! I discovered that night that he had not been apart from her for very long as a matter of fact he asked me out the weekend after he moved out of their house! Needless to say that ended right then!
A few months went by and I was introduced to Zack and Austin. I learned that some people are just rude and others are just selfish, liars. I dated them for awhile and after a couple of dates with Zack I decided he was just looking for sex and I wouldn't be going out with him because I wanted more than that. Austin and I continued dating and we even got serious enough to be exclusive. After dating for about 8 months he began drinking more and more. After a couple of canceled dates because I would arrive at his house and he would be so drunk I would tell him I wasn't going out with him like that I stopped seeing him. He continued calling and at one point I even had to get a restraining order against him to leave me alone.
I decided that was it. I was done. Where were all the nice guys? I moved on to a "friend with benefits" and so far that has worked out the best. I see him when I want to. I don't see him when I don't want to. I don't have to waste energy on something I know isn't going to happen because we were already friends and had known eachother for years and it was what it was and we were very upfront and honest about it!
However, another year has gone by and I decided I am ready to start dating again, but all the good guys seem to be hiding? They either want to have "instant relationship - just add warm body" or they don't know what dating means, or there are just too many frogs out there!
Today a friend told me I am intimidating to men. He said I was smart, witty, hold my own, and not afraid to speak my mind. He said that was intimidating to men.
Does that mean I am doomed to be alone? When did it become a bad thing to be a smart, witty, independant woman who could hold a conversation and didn't mold herself to be what someone else wanted?
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