Thursday, September 29, 2011

the ramblings of a woman stricken with anxiety



sometimes i have these horrible feelings of anxiety
sometimes they are so strong that i have to stop what i am doing because i feel like i can not go on
the things in life that make me feel the most anxiety are the things that i do not have total control over
my friend tells me to relax and take a chance but my fear holds me back but my brain tells me that fear will get me no where....
my other friend tells me to raylax... which is deffinately what i want to do
sometimes i just think........i think too much.............

Monday, September 26, 2011

in progress stay tuned for more rivoting thoughts from a random mind...........................


Sometimes in life we have to sit back and look at our life around us in order to realize that we have it pretty good.  I may not have started life out in the best of circumstances and I may have endured a lot throughout my short 35 years but looking out over it I am really happy with who I am, where I am at, what I have accomplished and the people who I love.



I have always been one of those people who have the ability to change their cloak depending on the environment and circumstances in life.  I have many aquaintances in my life all over the world but only a handful of people who I truely call friends.   
I have been lucky enough to have a sister that loves me even though she and I are as different as night and day and rarely agree on anything.......
I have been lucky enough to be blessed with a niece I adore.
I have been lucky enough to be blessed with a horrible man so that when a good one enters my life I will be able to recognize him..
I have been blessed with a woman who has stepped in and been a mother to me after the death of my own mother......
I have been blessed with numours children of friends who are my nieces and nephews .....
I have been blessed with a great sense of who I am and what I want out of life......

Monday, September 19, 2011

Single in a Small Town - choices

I was thinking about the difference between people who enjoy being single and those that whine about not having someone in their lives. Now I know some people enjoy being single.  These people have chosen to use their time being single as time to learn more about who they are, what they want, and learn knew things but on the other hand there are those people who are so afraid of being alone they hop from one person to the next just so they never have to be single. It's almost like it's a bad thing to be single. 
When I say that I'm single, I mean it. I go on dates when the opportunity arises and of course I am always open to the right relationship but until that time I am single. I work hard, build my company, I work on my two homes, I spend time with family and friends, I read, I write, I paint, I engage in photography, I volunteer for 2 organizations, I spend time with my rottie, and many other hobbies that keep me pretty occupied.


I would love to know why you are single? Is it a conscious choice? Situational? Just Happened?

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Sikorsky Charges U.S. Army $2,393 for $181 Black Hawk Part

 September 08, 2011, 4:43 PM EDT
By Tony Capaccio



(Updates with report, comment starting in seventh paragraph.)
Sept 8 (Bloomberg) -- Sikorsky Aircraft Corp. overcharged the U.S. Army for 28 UH-60 Black Hawk helicopter spare parts, including $2,393.41 for a plastic wiring box cover worth $181.70, according to the office of the Defense Department’s Inspector General.
Sikorsky, a unit of Hartford, Connecticut-based United Technologies Corp., charged the Army $7,814.88 for a rotor used to cool radiator oil that cost another Pentagon agency $1,536.65, according to the 65-page audit. Bloomberg News obtained the report, a three-page summary of which the Inspector General made public today.
The audit cited excessively priced parts and costs based on pricing data that wasn’t current, complete or accurate from the latest of three Sikorsky contracts with the Corpus Christi, Texas, Army depot. The contracts were valued cumulatively at about $1.1 billion. The initial contract award was made in December 2002.
Army officials have a “myriad of issues to overcome to ensure that prices are fair and reasonable,” said the audit, which is signed by Bruce Burton, deputy inspector general for acquisition management.
Overall “we calculated that Sikorsky charged the Army $11.8 million, or 51.4 percent more than fair and reasonable prices,” between 2008 and 2010, the audit said. About $158,531 of that excess was paid for the plastic wiring box covers.
‘Excessive Prices’
“If not corrected Army officials will pay excessive profits of approximately $16.6 million over the remaining two years of the contract,” including $249,986 in future wiring box overcharges, it said.
Sikorsky also charged progressively increased prices for titanium sheath assemblies used to protect Black Hawk rotor blades -- the helicopter’s most expensive item, the audit said.
Sikorsky’s assembly prices increased 114.3 percent to $17,004.39 each in 2008 from $7,936.57 each in 2007. “Sikorsky made a 28.6 percent profit supplying the item in 2010 and the profit will increase annually by 4 percent through 2012 due to the contract clause escalation,” the audit said.
The audit is the second since May to underscore the pricing problems that can occur under contracts in which the Army, the Air Force and the Navy purchase management services and parts from private contractors instead of through the Pentagon’s Defense Logistics Agency.
Boeing Audit
The Inspector General’s office in a May audit disclosed similar overpricing with Boeing Co.’s maintenance contract with the Corpus Christi depot, which handles Black Hawks and Boeing CH-47 transport helicopters.
Both the Sikorsky and Boeing reports highlight areas of potential cost savings as the Pentagon seeks to protect funding for personnel and weapons programs from additional budget cuts. Shay Assad, the Pentagon’s new director of pricing, said in an interview he is already reviewing the Boeing audit.
Defense contractor overcharges in the 1980s undercut public confidence in Pentagon management, as Senate committees disclosed overpriced spare parts such as a $37 machine screw, a $435 claw hammer and a $640 toilet cover assembly just as the Reagan administration was starting to increase defense spending.
“It is important to note that of the more than 7,000 parts covered under this contract, only a handful were found to have discrepancies,” said Sikorsky spokesman Paul Jackson.
Full Compliance
“Sikorsky operates under a culture of full compliance and continuous improvement,” he said.
Sikorsky has agreed to provide $1 million in refunds, including some for the wiring box covers. The Army Aviation and Missile Life Cycle Management Command, which manages the contracts, “needs to correct prices and seek” another $11 million in refunds, the audit said.
The Army also must revise contract clauses to avoid another $21 million in “excessive costs” that would be triggered by escalation clauses, the audit said.
Sikorsky’s Jackson said “we have been cooperating fully with the DoD IG and AMCOM throughout the process. We recognize the DoD IG periodically examines the contracts of many companies and that this contract is one of a series under review.”
“We negotiated this contract, worth over S1.1 billion, in good faith with the goal to provide unparalleled service levels at a reasonable price,” he said. “We believe we have demonstrated our value to the Army customer in our performance under this contract.”
Incentive to Charge
The overcharges stem from factors including the incentive for Sikorsky under its firm fixed-price contracts to charge as much as possible without passing on savings, the audit said.
Sikorsky repeatedly didn’t adequately negotiate lower costs with its suppliers or pass on savings when it did, the audit found.
The Defense Contract Audit Agency since 2006 “has consistently documented that Sikorsky does not perform adequate cost or price analysis” of subcontractor quotes, the audit said.
The Army didn’t adequately analyze Sikorsky’s prices, the audit said. The command didn’t have “adequate procedures to ensure” Sikorsky’s costs were reasonable for use in negotiations, it said.
Army Aviation Command official Ronald Chronister in written July 7 comments included in the report said his organization agreed to review the refund request and improve its cost analysis.
“Recognizing the need to focus on the evaluation of proposals and drive efficiencies in our large dollar acquisitions,” the command established a new directorate of cost and price analysis, he said.
Army Comment
Still, the Army Command “does not agree” with the report’s overall thrust that the Sikorsky contract “is ineffective, overly costly or inefficient,” said spokesman Dan O’Boyle in an e-mail statement today.
“While AMCOM will appropriately deal with any over-pricing issues -- it is important to note the identified overpriced parts represent about 5 percent of the total materiel cost, and is focused on 28 out of 7,000 parts that are priced in the contract.”
“Even though any overpricing is a concern, in a contract of this magnitude it is important to view the total agreement price which is considered reasonable in light of the overall cost and performance,” he said.
“This contract has enabled the Army to significantly decrease repair turnaround times for critical aircraft parts, and significantly increase production rates of both parts and aircraft,” O’Boyle said.
Better Analysis Needed
The Sikorsky and Boeing audits indicate that the Army needs to do a more thorough job of cost and price analysis and examine how prime contractors evaluate subcontractor prices, said IG auditor Henry Kleinknecht in an interview. “It’s the prime contractor’s job to negotiate a fair price,” he said.
“Unfortunately, this latest report is yet another example illustrating the department’s broken and ineffective inventory and accounting systems,” said Senator Tom Carper, a Delaware Democrat who heads a financial management subcommittee.
“While the report’s findings are deeply troubling - particularly as we are struggling with a massive federal debt and deficit -- they are not surprising,” Carper said today in an e-mail. “We have known for years the department is unable to audit its books and is woefully behind in meeting Congress’ requirement that it be audit-ready by 2017.”
Carper said he’d highlight the Sikorsky audit in a Sept. 15 hearing he’s convening.
--Editors: Ann Hughey, Jodi Schneider

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Daycare Worker Accused Of Drugging Children


GRAYSON COUNTY (CBSDFW.COM) – 
A North Texas daycare owner is accused of doping kids’ milk in order to make them sleepy.
According to police, on several occasions Kimberly Lane, owner of the Luv-n-Learning Daycare in Van Alstyne, mixed over the counter antihistamines in a jug of milk and gave it to children in her care to make them fall asleep.
Van Alstyne Police Department Lieutenant Tim Barnes said daycare workers made their complaint to police on Tuesday.
“There was also a referral made to Child Protective Services (CPS) over the weekend,” he said. “We were able to obtain a search warrant and an arrest warrant from a district judge and we served that Wednesday morning, at the location, before the milk products were served.”
Barnes said while what Lane did may not have been malicious it was reckless. “I don’t believe her intent was to harm the                      children,” he said. “But giving kids medication and then their parents not knowing about it and then when they get home if  something was to occur where they were having to give them    other medication that may have a reaction… it could have    been a bad situation.”                                                                The children possibly drugged range in age from 20 months to four-years-old.                                                                                      
Lane faces 16 felony counts of endangerment to a child and is being held in the Grayson County Jail on $160,000 bond.
Luv-n-Learning Daycare was licensed through the Texas Department of Family and Protective Services Daycare Division, which allowed the facility to care for toddler and pre-kindergarten age children.
Kimberly Lane faces a maximum of two years in jail and fines up to $10,000 for each count.
Van Alstyne is about 50 miles north of Dallas in Grayson County. 

Men charged after 15 monkeys found dead at Los Angeles airport


LOS ANGELES | Thu Sep 8, 2011 7:35pm EDT

(Reuters) - Two men were charged with animal cruelty after 15 monkeys they were shipping from Guyana to Thailand were found dead at Los Angeles International Airport, prosecutors said on Thursday.
Florida-based wild animal broker Robert Matson Conyers, 44, and Akhtar Hussain, a Guyana supplier, have each been charged with 10 counts of animal cruelty, Los Angeles City Attorney's spokesman Frank Mateljan said.
Conyers appeared in Los Angeles Superior Court on Wednesday, Mateljan said, while Hussain remains and large and was thought to be in Guyana, in South America. Each man faces up to six months in jail and a $20,000 fine if convicted.
Mateljan said Hussain sold around two dozen primates to a buyer in Bangkok in February of 2008 and hired Conyers to deliver them.
Conyers attempted to ship 14 Marmosets, five white-fronted Capuchins and six Squirrel Monkeys from Guyana to Bangkok through Miami, Los Angeles and then China, but the animals were refused transit in China because of an irregularity with shipping documents, Mateljan said.
Fourteen of the monkeys died of neglect, starvation and hypothermia in transit back to Los Angeles, he said, and another had to be euthanized. The surviving animals were taken to the San Diego Wild Animal Park for further care.
The case was investigated by the U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service and ultimately handed over to Los Angeles prosecutors.
"When you get to the point where there are dead animals and they've been in the plane for several hours, it gets to be a problem that we felt needed to be taken seriously," Mateljan said. "This is definitely neglect and improper planning."
(Editing by Cynthia Johnston)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Dallas mother 'glued two-year-old daughter's hands to wall and beat her into a coma'


Last updated at 8:40 PM on 9th September 2011

A two-year-old girl is fighting for her life after her mother allegedly glued her hands to the wall and beat her into a coma because she was struggling with potty training.
Elizabeth Escalona, 22, faces child abuse charges after she allegedly dragged her daughter through the house in Dallas and tortured her, leaving her with countless injuries and possible brain damage.
The toddler, Joselyn Cedillo, is on life support in hospital. According to police records, glue and paint were stuck to her palms, with skin torn away in places.

Arrested: Elizabeth Escalona, 22, is accused of horrific child abuse
Arrested: Elizabeth Escalona, 22, is accused of horrific child abuse
A relative told local station News 8 that the girl has broken bones, bruises and head injuries.
The girl was rushed to hospital after Escalona called her mother and said there was something wrong with her daughter.

When the child's grandmother got the house, the girl was unresponsive.
According to police reports, Escalona dragged her daughter by her feet before gluing her hands to the wall until they bled

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Apartment: The girl was abused at a home in Dallas
                                Apartment: The girl was abused at a home in Dallas
                       
She then allegedly hit the girl in the stomach with a milk jug, kicked her and beat her with a shoe and a belt. Police said that numerous people had seen the suspect inflict pain on her daughter in the past.  The girl and three other siblings have been taken into custody.  Escalona could face life in prison if convicted.  






Monday, September 12, 2011

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The voice inside my head..........

We all have it. That voice inside ourselves. For many its constant chatter can be overwhelming but for others it is a soothing reminder that they like themselves.  

I am one of the unlucky ones. As a child the "adults" in my life constantly were pounding emotionally abusive statements into my head. The things these adults would say, "you aren't pretty, you're not good enough" "your not smart" "stupid" "dumb ass" "no one loves you"  After hearing it for so long this became my internal soundtrack even as an adult. 


Even though I spent years in therapy learning why my internal soundtrack was like this and learning how to change it sometimes, even now, I catch myself allowing this negative sound track to run through my head and I have to stop and remind myself that those people were all abusive liars! 


How did I change it? Well a wonderful therapist helped me identify why I had it in the first place and gave me simple exercises to change it. 

Exercise 1
Pick a day for doing this exercise, preferably a day when you don't plan to be doing anything dramatic or out of the ordinary. Keep your journal or a small notebook and pen handy throughout the day. Make a series of appointments with yourself. Every two hours, stop what you're doing, take out the notebook, and simply jot down observations about the self-talk you've been having for the past two hours. Each of these eight or ten note-taking sessions need only take a few minutes. Write down what you've been telling yourself about:
  • Your appearance.
  • The work that you've been doing for the past two hours.
  • Your intelligence.
  • Your competence.
  • Your skills and abilities.
  • Your worth.
  
If you find it easier not to wait for the two-hour mark, but instead to jot things down as you hear yourself saying them, then by all means, do it that way. The point is to develop a thorough understanding of one day's internal dialogue, without completely upsetting your daily schedule.


Exercise 2
Imagine that you are scheduled to make an important presentation at work tomorrow. A number of important customers or clients, as well as several of your coworkers and your boss, will be there watching. It's the night before. You're lying in bed, in the dark, thinking about the presentation. What are you saying to yourself?


Take whatever time you need to consider, honestly and thoroughly, the kinds of messages that would be going through your head. You'd be having a conversation with yourself, so what would you be saying? Write down as much of this conversation as you can. Don't be afraid to be honest because this is the only way you can truly identify the negative self talk and change it! 


Exercise 3
Look back at the writing that you did for both Exercises 1 and 2. Do you see common themes or threads running through both sets of writings? If so, what are those common features? Describe them in writing.


Exercise 4
When you look back over your writing for Exercises 1 and 2, how would you describe the overall tone or mood of your internal dialogue? Is it pessimistic, defeatist, self-condemning?  Are there particular areas where what you've written sounds especially harsh or critical?  Circle any writing that you think illustrates especially positive or especially negative internal dialogue.


Exercise 5
Again, glancing back over your writing for both Exercises 1 and 2: What does your writing tell you about your locus of control? Is your internal dialogue oriented externally, internally or in accordance with chance? Write down your answer.


Exercise 6
As you look at your writing, answer this question: What kind of a friend are you to yourself throughout the day? If you were a friend whispering in your ear the messages you recorded in Exercises 1 and 2, what kind of friend would you be? You're the one who talks to you, all day, every day. What kind of friend are you? Are you actively creating a toxic environment for yourself, contaminating your experience of the world? Or are the messages that you send yourself characterized by a rational and productive optimism?

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

It's my party........

The end of this week brings on my 35th birthday and I plan to disappear into the outdoors, do a little traveling, enjoy some good food and relax!

Cooler temps should make this trip very enjoyable while hiking in the caverns and the hills to enjoy some photography and nature, and heading over to Fredericksburg for some good food and just taking time out to enjoy life!

Monday, September 5, 2011

What does a virtual assistant do?



Rather than being an employee, a Virtual Assistant is an independent contractor and business owner in their own right. 

The best way to describe the Virtual Assistant role is to briefly explain what I did last week.
Working from my home office with several different clients, I:

􀂾 typed some reports for a consultant and emailed them back

􀂾 designed a Powerpoint presentation for a speaker. He was presenting at a conference overseas the following day. I emailed it back to him

􀂾 designed and organized the printing of a flyer for a singer who has a performance coming up

􀂾 set up and sent out a newsletter for a client

I did all this without seeing or meeting any of the clients: we spoke on the phone and/or emailed each other. 

Think of the Virtual Assistant as a freelance administrator, designer, organizer, researcher, editor, typist, secretary, coordinator, all rolled into one!

Clients enjoy the flexibility of using a Virtual Assistant as and when they require, without having to pay a regular wage or employee benefits. This means huge cost savings for clients, as they are only paying by the hour for actual work done. There is an increasing demand for Virtual Assistants, as more and more people realize their true benefits. The future of Virtual Assistance is certainly looking bright.

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Quick summary of the benefits of using a virtual assistant. The benefits are enormous for smart business owners as follows:

Flexibility, work can be done outside of normal business hours.

No need to provide office space, hardware and supplies as a virtual assistant uses own resources and stationery.

A virtual assistant cares about her business and offers superior service.

A virtual assistant is only paid for the time spent working.

Virtual assistants are independent contractors thereby eliminating administration on client's behalf with payroll, leave payments, sick leave, employer taxes, etc.

A virtual assistant is not paid for spending time on personal phone calls, coffee breaks, surfing the net, texting at her desk, etc.

A virtual assistant performs the tasks that you previously may have been wasting your time doing instead of focusing on growing your buisness. As a business owner you should be outsourcing and delegating the myriad of administrative tasks to an appropriate virtual assistant.