It's that time of year when everyone dresses up and puts out the scary decorations and everyone delights! In the past few years I would normally go out with a group of "friends" that I have quickly learned are just acquaintances and attend their party but with all the reflection I have been embarking on I have changed my plans yet again!
While my house has been decorated in a spooky fashion all month long I have decided to either travel to a neighboring town and walk with my best friend while she takes her son Zman trick or treating or to just stay home and watch scary movies! While I truly enjoy the Halloween atmosphere, I have lost all desire to associate with people who have not called me or come to see me in months. It's like since I don't attend the Friday night drinking fests any longer no one has any need to speak with me. That's a hard pill to swallow. I have difficulty understanding why it is that people have these fake relationships. No one has picked up a phone and said "how's Karen?", "How are you?" "let's go have dinner", "let's see a movie", "come hang out" or anything else. I don't understand why it is so difficult to establish meaningful friendships with people. They never hesitate to call me when they need something, for instance about 3 weeks ago two of the "friends" needed use of my truck and they called then (of course i refused because i didn't have it in me to be used at that time) however, in the past I would have done it. I was always there whenever anyone needed me. It seems now that I am experiencing some stressful times the only people who care are my best friend and my Karen. That's a hard to pill to take.
Don't get me wrong I am thankful to have them both and I will always be there for them as they are for me, because that's what friends do!
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